Back To The Oldies...

So I have started to hang out with some of my older friends, which is weird because they are the younger ones.  Over the past week, we all know that Thanksgiving occurred, and being in the school that I am in, I got off a week from school.  My "older" friends, such as Colton, Dylan, Ryan, other people that you won't know, are fun sometimes, and since I haven't hung out with them for a long period of time, it was fun over this week.  But after too long of being around them, I start to get annoyed.  As anyone would know that knows me, I hate stupid people, and annoying people fall into that category.  So after the 5 years of only having them as a friend, I realized that maybe if I just get away from them for a little, then I will appreciate my time with them more.  And it worked.  I had a great Thanksgiving break and it was mainly because I spent most of my time with my friends, "older" friends.  

My Thanksgiving itself was amazing too.  I went over to my mom's parent's place to celebrate the holiday and we had a great time.  And I do miss the old days, where I used my imagination to have fun instead of technology and money.  I really do miss going out to the near-by field with my friends and a couple of fake guns and pretending like we were in the army and had to fend off 50,000 enemy soldiers, cause that's how we spent our time.  I am using my time more productively now, but not necessarily having fun doing it.  I love the time that I spent with my friends.  I wouldn't be able to live without it.  I just wish that I had more of it.  Sooner than I expect, I'll be out of high school, looking for colleges, and my friends will decide to go to different colleges or start a family or move out of the state.  All of those would suck, for the fact that I don't want to loose my friends.  I have some of the best friends that anyone could ask for, and if I loose them, I don't know what I will do.  Like for example, my best buds and I have planned to go on a big road trip once all of us turn 17, and that's right when we need to be cracking down the hardest, the ACT's or PSAT's, finding a college, getting accepted into that college.  So much stuff that it might interfere with that road trip, but seriously, we have been planning that trip since we were 10.  That's 5 years ago for people who don't know how old I am now.  And one of the suckier things about the trip is that I am the youngest one going on the trip, like the people that are going are Colton, Brook, and I; and I am the youngest.  Brook and Colton are already 16.  Brook only has 4 more months until he turns 17, and I won't even be 16 by the time that he turns 17.  So that really sucks that they are all waiting on me.

But I guess the only way to keep the time that we have together is to enjoy it to the fullest.  I mean there will always be change.  You can't stop it.  And it sucks.  I wish that it was just possible to find the best time of your life and just live in that time for the rest of your life.  That would be amazing, and a dream.  

Life goes on...

~Colby

For Seth...

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The Past Few Weeks

Happy Halloween!!!  (late Halloween)

Happy Thanksgiving  (early Thanksgiving)

Merry Christmas (early Christmas)

Welcome back to the wonderful blog of your lovable Colby.  My life has been a little shaky this past week.  I have been sick for the past few days, so that means that I will have like 10 billion things of homework.  So that sucks, also, I had a project due today and I think the teacher doesn't accept late work, so the project might not even count, and I really need it to count.  I had a math test on Tuesday, so I will have to go early tomorrow and take it, and I have no idea what it's about.  It was the start of the 2nd quarter of school, so I got a fresh start, and I am really trying hard to keep my grades up, but being sick for 2 days isn't the best way to keep up on school.  I was really sick too, not faking it like I did at the start of the first quarter.  That makes school kind of depressing, that and stupid people and mean people.  All those things add up to be one hell of a high school experience.  NOT.  But life goes on. 

More things going on in my life and the world, Barak Obama is our new president.  WOOOOOOOTT!!!!!!!  I am glad that he won.  America needs change, and McCain was not the choice if we wanted change.  McCain would pretty much be another 4 years of Bush and he would not make an impact on American history, unlike Obama.  Without even doing anything, Obama has already made a huge impact on American history, since he will be the first African American president.  Already, without even being in the office yet.  I really hope that he will be good for America and not turn out to be the anti-christ like some people think that he is.

So let me tell you about my awesome Halloween.  It was one of my better Halloweens, since I got to hang out with my best friend and 6 ladies.  That's a first.  But, the reason why it wasn't THE best is because I had to leave early from the party because of my age, and me having a curfew.  That is one of the things that I hate more than anything about being young, is that my parents don't trust me enough to be out later than 12:00.  But it wasn't all because of my curfew, it was also because Seth wanted to get the men out of his house so he can have his way with all of the ladies.  Which I understand, I just wish that sometime, I can just hang out with everyone and just have a good time until "I" want to go home, not when I have to, and not when my parents want me to.  But I can just hope for the best, like the older I get, hopefully, the more fun I will have.  People always tell me that high school is the best time of your life.  Not exactly for me, just because I really don't do anything for my school.  That is my decision, but I wish that I could have a high school experience where I actually enjoyed going there and not wanting to kill myself everyday that I am there.  

But life goes on, and I will just continue hoping for better times.  Until next entry, I'm your host, Colby.  See ya next time.

Saosin

Stupid Mondays

Well, today I got off of school, which is awesome, but the sucky thing about it is that tomorrow, I have school.  I know thats its inevitable that I will have to go back to school, but today, I did something that I haven't done in awhile, and I mean a long while.  I hung out with the oldest friend I have, my mom.  Julie A. Newman is a wonderful person.  She has always been there for me, and still is there.  She really never seems like she is sick of having me around.  She can get a little annoying sometimes, like after a long night of nursing, and she is really tired the next day, she can act like a 4 year old.  But I live through those moments and look forward to the times where she is wide awake, and we just do stuff together.  

Like today.  We did stuff that I haven't done in forever, and I have missed some stuff this week; realizing that I have very little friends, (But the friends that I do have are AMAZING!!!!)  and just having a normal weekend, but today changed the normal part.  We went to Toys R Us, and I know that that is a little kiddy, but that is what I have been missing in my life for the last month or so.  It's not like I hate being more mature, having a job, and older friends.  That's not it at all.  It's just that I AM 15 and sometimes, I just need to act my age, maybe even younger than my age.  So that is what I got today.  A little memory of what it was like to be a 12 year old again.  Over this week, I was really thinking about all my good times and why all of them have left me, and all the stuff that I used to do, I don't do anymore.  

Well today changed those thoughts, and showed me that I can still have a good time with my parents, and not just treat them like parents.  I missed that, because me and mom used to be best friends, like best friends.  I used to live in a neighborhood where there were NO kids my age.  No kids.  So I had to find my own fun and adventure and friends, and what better way to than with the person that is there to wake me up everyday, and just be my friend.  So from about 1 - 5 years of age, my only friend was my mom, and this one weird kid in my preschool.  But I have noticed how bad I really treat my parents.  I mean I am a BITCH sometimes, and it's for the littlest reasons, sometimes it's just to show off to some of my "friends" how I can boss my parents around, and basically be a complete asshole to them, just so I can look cool to those people that I really don't care about as much as I do my relationship with my parents.  So, today, I have realized that I don't care what other people think, except for the people who truly care about me, and the people who I can trust.  There it is.  That's it, if I don't know you, then I don't give a rat's ass what you think about me.  So just deal.  

Things that I have figured out today

1. I love my parents

2. I have a great life

3. I have unbelievably great friends.

4. There is no need to get upset with one of your life-long friends over ditching out on me ONE night.

Things that I will do from now on

1. Spend more time with my parents

2. Even out the time with all my friends

3. Not get mad over little things

4. Have a more positive outlook on life

New Episode of my Show

Alright, so I got a new episode of the 517 Show up on Blank, and on iTunes, so go listen.  It explains the last blog post in more detail.

Wow, life is pretty sucky right now.  I kinda just realized that I have no friends.  Seth is the only guy that is even remotely there when I need a friend.  Mariah and Ashley are just there to talk to, I don't really hang out with either one because Ashley doesn't live by me and she doesn't have a car, and Mariah is in Missouri.  Colton is apparently ditching me for Dylan and his other friends.  I could have been the start of us kind of "breaking up," since I became friends with Seth and started hanging out with him.  Seth and I ended up having more things in common than Colton and I did.  So I started hanging with Seth more than Colton, and right now, I want to be friends with both of them, but I think that Colton is trying to get back at me, or he just realized that I suck as a friend and decided to go find new fun.

So my life is pretty much in the shit right now.  I am tired of school, tired of all the shit that has been going on in my life.  Like, over this summer, all of my friends seemed to disappear.  And then school started back up, and it was just really awkward between all my friends and me, so we just didn't hang out, cause all these things were really awkward.  I am just so fucking tired of shit happening that's bad in my life.  Everything just sucks ass, and being a 15 year old kid, I can't handle it.  If anyone ever reads this blog, I am not going to kill myself.  That's just stupid.  I don't know what to do.  I guess just hang with the only friend that I have right now, and just keep living my life.  It's always darkest just before the dawn.  (Batman)

FUNNY PICTURES!!!!!!!!!!!!!