Well, today I got off of school, which is awesome, but the sucky thing about it is that tomorrow, I have school. I know thats its inevitable that I will have to go back to school, but today, I did something that I haven't done in awhile, and I mean a long while. I hung out with the oldest friend I have, my mom. Julie A. Newman is a wonderful person. She has always been there for me, and still is there. She really never seems like she is sick of having me around. She can get a little annoying sometimes, like after a long night of nursing, and she is really tired the next day, she can act like a 4 year old. But I live through those moments and look forward to the times where she is wide awake, and we just do stuff together.
Like today. We did stuff that I haven't done in forever, and I have missed some stuff this week; realizing that I have very little friends, (But the friends that I do have are AMAZING!!!!) and just having a normal weekend, but today changed the normal part. We went to Toys R Us, and I know that that is a little kiddy, but that is what I have been missing in my life for the last month or so. It's not like I hate being more mature, having a job, and older friends. That's not it at all. It's just that I AM 15 and sometimes, I just need to act my age, maybe even younger than my age. So that is what I got today. A little memory of what it was like to be a 12 year old again. Over this week, I was really thinking about all my good times and why all of them have left me, and all the stuff that I used to do, I don't do anymore.
Well today changed those thoughts, and showed me that I can still have a good time with my parents, and not just treat them like parents. I missed that, because me and mom used to be best friends, like best friends. I used to live in a neighborhood where there were NO kids my age. No kids. So I had to find my own fun and adventure and friends, and what better way to than with the person that is there to wake me up everyday, and just be my friend. So from about 1 - 5 years of age, my only friend was my mom, and this one weird kid in my preschool. But I have noticed how bad I really treat my parents. I mean I am a BITCH sometimes, and it's for the littlest reasons, sometimes it's just to show off to some of my "friends" how I can boss my parents around, and basically be a complete asshole to them, just so I can look cool to those people that I really don't care about as much as I do my relationship with my parents. So, today, I have realized that I don't care what other people think, except for the people who truly care about me, and the people who I can trust. There it is. That's it, if I don't know you, then I don't give a rat's ass what you think about me. So just deal.
Things that I have figured out today
1. I love my parents
2. I have a great life
3. I have unbelievably great friends.
4. There is no need to get upset with one of your life-long friends over ditching out on me ONE night.
Things that I will do from now on
1. Spend more time with my parents
2. Even out the time with all my friends
3. Not get mad over little things
4. Have a more positive outlook on life
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